So, it's really weird to think that I am almost completely done with my first year of college. I still remember being four years old and thinking that my six year old brother was the coolest (don't get me wrong, he's a pretty cool kid --he was just still in that phase where he would pretend to be Indiana Jones or Batman by doing "crazy jumps" on the trampoline or tying belts together to swing from our bunk bed) Anywho, it's just weird to think about how far I've come since looking up to boys that can climb trees. Now I look up to boys that give up two years of their life to serve the Lord and friends that have enough stamina and diligence to have a 12 hour date with Harold (a.k.a. the Library) every day for like a month to prep for finals.
I am so grateful for the amazing experiences that I have had this year. I cannot even begin to describe how happy i am to know the people that I do and to have had the experiences freshman year brought.
It's interesting to think about the future...note that i said "think about" not "fret about". I continue to find myself worrying and stressing about where my family is going to live, if my dad is going to get another job, what classes i am going to take, whether or not i will be able to make friends, if i will be able to keep up with all of the wonderful goals i am giving myself, etc. It is so easy to get sucked up into the What Ifs of the future and not really enjoy the excitement of a new adventure. I feel like that is something that i, personally, need to work on. And at the same time, what an awesome opportunity to completely and totally rely on the Lord! =D I've come to realize what amazing faith it requires to press forward without knowing all the details, trusting that He will ensure that all your experiences will be for your good.
****Quote #1 of the Day****
"And when we have learned what we need to learn and have brought with us the best that we have experienced, then we look ahead and remember that faith is always pointed toward the future."
--Elder Jeffrey R. Holland--
Speaking of experiences that are supposed to be for your good, let's talk about finals. Finals can be mildly stressful. Strike that....supremely stressful. They are your last shot at making the best grade possible in all of your classes. AND they are ALL AT THE SAME TIME! Anywho, they can be supremely overwhelming. BUT! They don't have to be. I have found that we should "Pray as if everything depends on the Lord...and then work as if everything depends on us." In other words...get down on your knees and plead with the Lord (way in advance, i might add)...and then get on your feet and work like none other! He will help you...it just helps to ask in advance. I feel like that might be one of the hardest things for our Father in Heaven: He can see what we need. He desires to help us in so many ways. He can also see, however, how much of a growing process it is to learn to ask for His help. How many times has He wanted so badly to help me, and I haven't asked? I can only imagine how mildly frustrating that is.
Which reminds me of a letter:
Dear Friend,
I just had to send you a note to tell you how much I love you and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were walking with your friends. I waited all day hoping you would want to talk with me, also. It hurt me that you didn’t talk to me, but I still love you because I am your friend. I saw you fall asleep last night, and I longed to touch your brow. So I spilled moonlight on your pillow and your face. Again I waited, wanting to rush down so that we could talk. I have so many gifts for you, but you awakened late the next day and rushed off to school. My tears were in the rain.
Today I noticed you looked sad, and upset. It makes my heart ache because I understand. My friends let me down and hurt me so many times too. But, I love you. Oh, if only you would listen to me. I really love you. I try to tell you in the blue sky and in the green grass. I whisper in the leaves on the trees, and breathe it in the color of the flowers. I shout it to you in the mountain streams and give the birds love songs to sing, clothe you in warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature scents. My love for you is deeper than the oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need in your heart.
If you only knew how much I want to help you. I want you to meet my Father. He wants to help you, too. My Father is that way, you know. Just call me, ask me, and talk with me. Please, please don’t forget me. I have so much to share with you. But, I won’t hassle you any further. You are free to call me. It’s up to you. I’ll wait because I love you.
Your brother,I pretty much really love the message that that letter sends. I know y'all have all prolly at least heard about it, but i just can't get over how amazing it is to think about the Savior in that light. He truly is a friend. As is our Father in Heaven. He truly does wait for us to call on Him. As does our Father in Heaven. He truly understands what we're going through, and He wants us to share our experiences with Him: both our triumphs and our struggles.
Jesus
Anywho, it's pretty much wonderful that He wants to help poor, stressed college students with their finals. He's waiting for us to ask. =D
Also, I have decided to post my words of the day up here! Yay! maybe that will help me a) remember them and b)actually post on here more frequently
~~Word of the Day~~
biophilia
\bye-oh-FILL-ee-uh\ |
noun a hypothetical human tendency to interact or be closely associated with other forms of life in nature
Anywho, now that this post is forever and a day long...lol...and it's really early in the morning, so Happy Sunday to you all, and I am going to hit the hay!
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